Wednesday, February 20, 2013
The last few weeks on Wednesday, I have a little Bible study with Liz Curtis Higgs via her blog. It is a new way to do Bible study, but a blessing, nonetheless. I have been going through her book, "Embrace Grace~Welcome to the Forgiven Life". Let me tell you what, this study has done for me, I have a weight lifted off my shoulders, the grace that the Lord has bestowed upon me has reclaimed my heart and found my head. I have been suffering with the lies of the enemy, the "you're not good enough", "he hasn't forgiven you", "you're not worthy to be called a child of the King". Those words have had a party in my head the last couple of years. My heart has become heavy, my head full of filth, the ache for Christ's love overwhelming me. Praise Jesus that I have connected with Liz, she IS an encourager. Her words were directly from God to me. I am not over it, I am not completely set free, but I am connected with a counselor, who loves Jesus and Jesus loves me! I will conquer the demons inside my head, that want to play chess with my heart, I will rule over the enemy and his lies to defeat me. I will celebrate Jesus and His grace, because He loves me so. Praise you, Jesus for helping me come home.
Monday, February 4, 2013
The Joy Dare continues to keep me thinking. I picked JOY for my "one word" for 2013, so being able to do the JOY DARE daily has been good for me. Three things.... three very different things. "three gifts red" "three gifts on paper" "three gifts found in writing" Those are just the first few days of February. Thinking.... pondering.... what gifts so unthought of can I find each day. Am I one of the faithful? That was the thought yesterday at church. Will I be one of the faithful ready to be thrown into the fiery furnance? Am I living my life outloud for the Lord in such a way, that I could be charged with loving Him so much that I deserve the fiery furnance? Does my life live a window into the heart of Jesus? Do I show that although my mundane every day tasks seem menial, my hope is in a future that is unfathomable for us to comprehend? Can I see that my life is a story? A story being written by the Author who knows the end? I read the blog today at (in)courage from Tsh Oxenreider and it blessed my heart. These thoughts that my ordinary, everyday, simple life can be part of a bigger story being written by the Author. It goes to show me that even when I think it may not matter, the ultimate plot of my life is God's plan for me. I need to be ok with that, I need to praise Him for that, I need to thank Him for that. I need to remember that, in the moments when I can't seem to catch my breath.... God is there and He is writing my story.