Sunday, October 28, 2012
This past week has felt like an emotional roller coaster for me. I have watched my girl be so upset and read that she is crying in public and having regrets and bad days and wishing for a miracle, but her putting on a happy face for me. It is heart wrenching. I just want to be there for her to share her heart and her soul with us. To know that no matter what it is, we want to walk the road with her. To share her burden, to talk her through her thoughts and feelings, to say, "it's ok". I have cried several times this week and that isn't something I do a lot of much anymore. I have prayed over her with tears running down my cheeks and my heart aching. Only for her to turn to me and say,"Mommy, I'm ok, really." Finally, after the week of shared tears over unsaid words, she opened up to her Daddy and I tonight. I feel a burden lifted, not because everything is fixed, but because we are with her now, we know what to pray for and what not to say. She is such an amazing little girl, she keeps her head held high, a smile on her face and a will to fight~ always. Once in a while, we need to let that fall and be who we were made to be. Thank you Jesus for carrying my burdens and answering my prayers.